August 31, 2011 by Kim
Do you know what the Addiction feels like?
Do you know what it’s like to be completely powerless over something that, at one point in your life, meant absolutely nothing to you.
Before the Addiction came into your world, you had control.
and now…. now, you find yourself indulging in the Addiction without any recollection of even acquiring the forbidden fruit.
It’s like waking from a hazy dream.
How did I get here…
The people surrounding you, in your life, are merely “extras”
the Addiction is the Star and you….
you, are the co-star.
You will never again shine as brightly as the Addiction.
It has taken everything from you.
Every last ion of what made you… you, is now completely immersed in the Addiction.
Enthralled with the Addiction.
Much like yourself…
and things…. things will be good at first.
You and the Addiction are hand in hand
You somehow manage to coexist in some kind of twisted harmony. You’re seeing the situation through jaded eyes, however.
and the Addiction…. the Addiction is a jealous bitch.
While your head is still clear, you may try to escape this whirlwind existence that you have managed to tumble into.
Same difference…. you’re still going down.
the Addiction knows you….. knows you better than you know yourself.
the Addiction know the exact location of the weakest area in your soul.
You want to say no…. the Addiction knows only yes.
They say to overcome the Addiction, YOU have to be the one to want it.
You have to want the Peace more…more than you ever, in your darkest moments, wanted the Addiction
When does that space in time occur?
At what point does an addict throw up their hands and declare that enough is enough?
How far a drop do they have to endure?
My name is Kimberly, and my Addiction is gum.