April 16, 2011 by Kim
16 years ago, in August, I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl I have ever seen.
In all my 33 years, the hardest thing I have ever had to do… by far, is to place her into another couple’s arms… and walk away.
The tears have been silently marching down my face since hubs left for work today.
The old saying that “it gets easier” is true, I guess… to some extent.
But when it hits…it hits hard.
When it hits… I feel empty
I become that depressed 17-year-old all over again.
…any accomplishment that I’ve made, since August 12 1995… it doesn’t matter
I know that at some point, today, I’ll snap out of it.
I’ll miss her every second of every day and I will forever…
but, when I fall into these funks.
God… It hurts